guo qi de tang yuan po le ye bu ke xi, zhi hui fa chu chou wei er yi

its been a long weekend, very emotional, very troubled, very happy and very sad... its like everything is mixed up...

this is the first time i got it, a phase i hope it never will happen... but since it has already happened, i just got to live with it, there's nothing much i can do at this stage... maybe it served as a reminder, a wake up call from my slack routine... All things work for the good for those who love Him...

i endured... for the longest time... not that i hated crowds but its really too much... guess that i'm the kind that like small private gatherings... not too crowded, at least there's some space to move about and some fresh air to breathe... never attended any countdowns, New Year or Christmas... thought i kinda missed out on the fun but now i know i would rather not join in the "fun"... well, maybe my definition of "fun" defers from most people...

haha, i guess most of you would be blur by the time you read until here, or maybe no one bothers to read in the first place... i don't know... met up with my friend for like an hour on sat b4 Sy Rogers service, (friend, if you are reading this, i'm sorry that our meeting was so short but at least some insights were exchanged right?)... she said one of her strenght is na de qi fang de xia... well, i wish i could be like that too... but usually when i na qi lai jiu hen nan fang xia le...

God speaks to people in the strangest of places... in the toilet, on the quiet street, in a crowd... He told me to fang xia once in the toilet, i refused... the consequences of disobedience will push you away from Him... today in the crowd, i had no where to run, to hide but to listen to Him... He said let it go... then i know i had to... indeed, He is my one and only source, nothing can take His place... God is gracious and merciful...

they say good is the enemy of the best... but how do you whether its the good or the best? what if you thought its just the good but it happened to be the best... what if you thought is the best is just only the good?

guo qi de tang yuan po le ye bu ke xi, zhi hui fa chu chou wei er yi...