some thoughts...

they say ignorance is a blessing... i wished i never knew... ever since i knew, my world when haywired... the timing didn't help too... a couple of weeks before exams... spiritual warfare... constant temptations... felt i have lost of sense of direction... helpless... felt away from God... messed up my life... and it wasn't even my problem... there's two sides to a coin... getting involved in it brought in new experiences... overcoming it would caused me to grow... i refused... regretted it... this overflow into this year... what am i suppose to do?

knew more things... but didn't know to to react or how to feel... sometimes i juz wanna throw in the towel... but i know i can't... sometimes it gets too burdensome... too heavy... i wanna left it go but i know i can't... and i should not... i need more than strength... i need a listening ear... a shoulder to cry on... until now... i only can trust in God... sometimes i hate myself...