vicky's blog

well.. this is moi blog... some stuff to share...moi thoughts n feelings... n the goodness of GOD

Thursday, April 28, 2005

It’s Finally Over… A Summary of my Year 1 in NTU

It is finally over… I want to believe God will deliver me… been feeling worried for the last paper… felt that I screwed it up, maybe only 50 marks received? I don’t know… all will be known come 31 May 2005…

Caution: Beware for a long post… in an attempt in sum up my Year 1 life in NTU…

4 years passed in a twinkling of an eye… I could recall the days of Year 1 when I just entered NTU… full of hopes, dreams and desires… wanting to prove myself…

I remembered going out Union FOC, doing the silliest things like rolling on the ground at the Takashimaya foundation and making a fool of ourselves… of course, that was also the last time SAO permit student activities aka FOCs to be done in the city as it disturbs that the place and tarnish the name of the university… in subsequent years, we are limited to Sentosa, neighbourhoods and other recreational areas… the first time I went to a club was also during UOC… I remember clearly it was a foam party… during that time it was the hippest thing to do… although it was dry foam, it was still gross… cause you can’t see when you are standing/walking/dancing… you might just step on someone’s toes…

B28… that was the class I was assigned to… fortunately for me, I have a JC classmate, Lian Hong, which was assigned to the same class. And Kai Li, my FYP partner was in B27… the first time I saw my class was during some introductory period, I sat next to a gal called Vivian, who wore the same pair of shoes as me that day… funny that I could recall such details…later on, she became the class representative and Arjun became the assistant class rep… stories about Arjun… haha… will always remember the attitude Andrew and Eugene have towards Arjun… I remembered that in Semester 1, we have to take a subject called G170 called Engineering Graphics (btw, I remembered all my subject codes, like G140, G143, G160 to G172, Year 2 to Year 4 as well… I know all this don’t mean anything to you but it means a lot to me… the tutorials, reports and projects mean different things for me)… since graphics class was on Friday, Thursday nights will always be spent at Hall 2, looking for Mike to teach us how to tackle the designs for class the next day… really grateful to Mike but I always felt that I’m ungrateful…

We used to have combined laboratory sessions in Year 1, B27 and B28 will combine and split into 2 groups… Andrew and I are in the same group, whereas Eugene, Jun Hong and Sy Ming are in the other group… tutorial period were kind of fun… we have fixed sitting locations and Eugene will always be sitting with Jun Hong behind me… making fun of my t-shirt… Eugene and Jun Hong were neighbours staying in the same block in Hall 8 then…

In December 2001, Eugene asked me to join him for a Christmas Service at his church… I was like ok… I always felt that Eugene wasn’t the sower but the reaper… if I have to credit a sower, that would be Huiling aka Emily (she’s in UM)… wanting to make sure I wasn’t the only one, I was glad that Jun Hong was going too… well, the rest was history…

In Year 1, I used to stick around with Kai Li and Lian Hong, since we came from the same university, but seriously we were never ever that close… after a while, I got tired of their company…I know I sound horrible for saying this but please pardon me… then I joined the guys, this was the group I sticked with for the rest of my Year 1 and I am glad that I maintain relatively good relations with until now, well except for… anyway, this is the group: Andrew (aka Shin Ping), Eugene, Jun Hong and Sy Ming… In lectures, we would sit together although I find it’s a pity that B28 wasn’t very united…

Once, we even gave Andrew a birthday surprise… it was a day before the Dynamics paper… at 12 midnight, we went knocking on his door, and I won’t forget the blur look on his face… well, that was the first and only and last time we did that… We even went for outings, once was to watch Spiderman at Cineleisure…

My ECA for Year 1 were; Volunteer Management of the Welfare Services Club and the Union Orientation Camp Committee as a Secretary… I stayed in Hall 15 Block 69 Unit 03-1432 with my JC friend Mei Mei aka Iris (some people actually called her Eyeball)… She was a great roommate, well, she is the only room mate I considered to have… the rest were like…. I talk about them in subsequent posts… Mei Mei and I were crap talkers… we crap like nobody business… we talk a lot… I remember the first night in the room, we actually went to bed at 11pm cause we can’t find anything to do… of course that was when our computer wasn’t there yet… slowly our sleeping habits grew weird and we began bathing at 2am (before the water heater switches off) and sleeping at 4am… even when we off the lights, we will lie on the bed and talk for a while before sleeping… then we will wake up 730am to go for 830 class… those were the time I pride myself for not skipping lectures (for tutorials, attendance are marked)… even the most boring ones like Engineers and Society… of course after a while, I began skipping lectures, especially like Physics and Chemistry… as I couldn’t understand what the accent of the lecturers… of course there was other factors like listening to my friends saying that they would teach me especially Chemistry since they took it in JC and it was tougher then…

Eugene and Jun Hong will sometimes pop by my room when they went jogging… we always did the hide and seek thingy where they would knock the door and hide behind the wall… however, during that time, my room was next to the toilet entrance, hiding behind the wall effectively seems that 2 perverts lurking around the girls toilet… haha…

At the end of Year 1, it was time for us to go separate ways… we chose to go to different schools… Andrew, Sy Ming and I went to EEE while Eugene and Jun Hong went to MPE and CEE respectively…

This sort of sums up what happened in Year 1 of my life in NTU…

Thursday, April 21, 2005

一个女人可以多坚强?

这几天我都在追看一部戏 -- 黑夜彩虹

其实这部戏蛮高潮跌起的... 但让我最深刻的是一为了自己的利益不的手段的女人... 一般人都会很恨她但是我同时非常的可怜她...

她自小就父母双亡... 小小年纪就被送进孤儿院... 为了能念书, 她每一年都考第一... 到了十八岁, 孤儿院不能在收留她... 为了上大学,不惜出卖自己被一人包...

她的处经让人心酸... 一个女人可以多坚强?

为了目标... 为了一些一般人垂手可得的事他必须地莫般的牺牲...

我很佩服她的坚强... 但不纵容她的行为... 可是我有权过问吗?

Your Life Path Number Is 1

Your Life Path Number Is 1
1

Your Life Path is is characterized by individualist desires, independence, and the need for personal attainment.
The purpose to be fulfilled on this Life Path is that of becoming independent.
This is a two part learning process; first, you must learn to stand on your own two feet and learn not to depend on others. After you are indeed free and independent, you must learn to be a leader.

Many of our generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path number 1.
You always have the potential for greatness as a leader, and you may fail as a follower.
Many 1's spend most of their lives shaking off their dependent side.
When this happens, there is little time left for enjoying the rewards to be gained through independence.
You may have to overcome an environment in which it is very easy to be dependent - and difficult to be independent.

You have an abundance or creative inspiration - and possess the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal.
Your drive and potential for action comes directly from the enormous depth of strength you have/
This includes both the physical and inner varieties of strength.
With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead.
As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation.

Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort.
In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through.
You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions.
You are ambitious, and either understand or must learn the need for aggressive action to promote yourself.
Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you are highly self-centered and demand to have your way in most circumstances.

If you are not fully developed, you may express the negative side of your number.
That means your demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent.
If this is the case, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances and long for self-sufficiency.
On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Over-confidence and impatience are the weak side of your Life Path.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

see... i am procastinating...

Your Inner European is Irish!



Sprited and boisterous!
You drink everyone under the table.



Your Linguistic Profile:

40% General American English
30% Yankee
20% Dixie
10% Upper Midwestern
0% Midwestern



You May Be a Bit Borderline ...



Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

3 down... 3 to go...

finished my 3rd paper on friday... it was a long 3 days , having papers for 3 consecutive days reallt tires out me... friday's paper starts from 1430 to 1700... not the usual afternoon paper timing where its from 1330 to 1600, so i panicked about 3plus... cuz i thought i have ran out of time... silly me... as you can see, my language is not very coherent... haha...

friday's paper was the coldest... was practically shivering although i was wearing a jacket... can u imagine those who are wearing skirts??? it was raining very heavily... had dinner with the cute neighbours... haha... don't think they are reading this so can say... i think they are cute... haha...

slept for 16 hours... break my own record... slept from 2000 on friday to 0500 on saturday... went toilet then sleep till 1200... winner right? well, at least the first half i slept really well and i had one of the nicest and silliest dreams during the second half...

i am feeling lazy now… procrastinating…

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Kiasu-ism – A Singaporean Syndrome?

Its 8:40am!!!! I’m in the library blogging… what the heck you might be thinking… well, I was suppose to study but the sight I witness just now was just too horrifying that I got to get it out of my mind fast!!!

I reached school at about 7:35am… for the first time in 4 years that I have ever been so early… I wanted to go to the library for it was stated that it will open at 7:30am from 07 April 2005, which is today… apparently, the staff decided only to open the doors at the usual time slot – 8:30am…

I have nothing against you if you come early… at about 8:15am many students started climbing up the stairs leading to the entrance… students in front, fearing that they might lose out edge forward every few minutes… it like legion of predators moving forward to a prey… if you saw Constantine… it was just like how the demons trying to move closer and closer to Constantine when he went down to hell… many more students came at around 8:25am and squeeze all the way to near the library entrance… HELLO!!! Does getting in first make you score all distinctions???

By 8:30am there was almost 100 students waiting at the entrance… if you are not a NTU student, you might not know that the library has 2 doors, one for entry and the other for exit… when the library staff came out from the exit door to open the entry door, there are students already trying to make their way through the exit door… they squeeze and push and some even tried to open the door so wide I was afraid that they will tear down the door…

Within 5mins of opening, all the tables were taken up… big tables, single seaters… all occupied by BAGS… apparently, after their conquest, almost everyone decides to take a break by going for breakfast and leaving their ‘trophies’ guarded using their personal items… if you are to come 5 mins late, the place you can use would be the computer terminals…

What can I conclude from the above scenario? Is Kiasu-ism a Singaporean Syndrome… the answer would be a BIG FLAT NO!!!

The students that were “queuing” up include China Nationals, Malaysians and Singaporeans… The worst students I observed are those from China… they are not the earliest to arrive but they edge to the front and started the entry through the exit door... and the only people I didn't see? Indians...

As for me, I am glad I have found a table… to be called my own for today…

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

dreams are made of these

dreams... what are dreams?
日有所思 夜有所梦?
or am i too tired or too stress out these days?

these dayz always get "huanted" by bad dreams... negative dreams... dreams of anger, of death, of being attack, of losing stuff, of quarrelling with others... end up being counselled.... hmmm... i wonder whats the significance?

death...
the Pope died on 2 April... well, i think that will consitute to another post...
one of JH's hamster died... ZS was attacked by A... as sad... does that make A the murderer? but JH still have not dispose of the body... abit gross right? =P

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

random thoughts

i have been having recurring dreams... its not those having the same dream over many nights but mine was having a dream replaying many times in a single night... somewhat like its in an auto replay mode and the contents aren't that pleasant too... wonder why is this happening... sleep deprivation? i can't seem to get back to sleep after the dreams... sigh...

went to jp just now to stock up my essentials to prepare for the exams... food food and more food... in the end i spent over $20 on groceries... haha... food don't come cheap these dayz...

8 more days before my first paper... going to miss school food... gee... all i could think of is food...

last week of class... aiming to attend all my lectures and tutorials this week... last chance to do so already... nostalgic feeling... time to do some work...